24-The end of the matter

 

After I was ex-communicated, for the second time, it appeared a great flood had gone through my life, washing away everything I thought I knew.  After I surveyed the wreckage I tried to pick up the pieces and reconstruct something that looked like what I had before but knew that would be the wrong path to follow, and would never work. I looked for another person who would help me reconstruct the debris,  but no one was willing to help. Eventually I cleared away the rubble myself, took stock of what I had left, and found there was not much usable material. I ended up discarding almost everything I once found true and started over from scratch.  If you look about my spiritual house now you might find a piece or two of the old dwelling here and there, but very little. When the flood of man swept through my life, there was immense devastation and emotionally  I looked a total loss. The relationship I have with God inwardly remains solid.  That relationship with God is the only hope I have in this world, and one I truly value.

Here is a Psalm that sums up the end of the matter for me.  I hope you enjoy it.

 

My soul rests in God alone. My salvation is from him. He alone is my rock and my salvation, my fortress-- I will never be greatly shaken. How long will you assault a man, Would all of you throw him down, Like a leaning wall, like a tottering fence? They fully intend to throw him down from his lofty place. They delight in lies. They bless with their mouth, but they curse inwardly. Selah.

My soul, wait in silence for God alone, For my expectation is from him. He alone is my rock and my salvation, my fortress. I will not be shaken. With God is my salvation and my honor. The rock of my strength, and my refuge, is in God. Trust in him at all times, you people. Pour out your heart before him. God is a refuge for us. Selah.

Surely men of low degree are just a breath, And men of high degree are a lie. In the balances they will go up. They are together lighter than a breath. Don't trust in oppression. Don't become vain in robbery. If riches increase, Don't set your heart on them. God has spoken once, Twice I have heard this, That power belongs to God. Also to you, Lord, belongs loving kindness, For you reward every man according to his work.                                                     

Psalms 62:1-12